My Getaway

Today I just had to getaway ALONE!

Do you ever have those days?

Well I have those days quite often. I LOVE being alone!! I guess because I can reflect. I can think. And I don’t feel distracted…much.

Today I was mad. Was extremely tired and it was so hard to pull myself out of bed.

It’s that time again. That time when I bite Jeff’s head off. That time when I stress out. That time when I cry…easily. That time when even fake spiders can hurt my feelings.

And it’s…

that time when we wait. And see.

I’m doubtful but ever hopeful.

It feels like any other time.

But I know I could imagine it’s different.

Imagine all those wonderful changes to a women’s body that occurs.

Imagine that I were turning into a Superwoman.

That I was ‘getting my powers’. But…

would that be truthful.

would that be productive.

of course not.

so the truth is I am most likely sad.

you know why.

and this sadness does make me angry. I won’t lie.

but what do I do?

getaway!

give it up

up to God

and hope

HOPE!!!

that HE can do something with me.

that He can be my Miracle Worker

My Doctor

and I wait.

we wait.

We’ve only been waiting since October 2008…

but it could happen

we have the realization that it has not been a year yet so…

we do not give up hope

I can’t believe the walk I did today in the beautiful sunshine was done in sandels! I guess it was one of those times when…

I had to getaway and fast. not even caring really what I were wearing on my feet.