Journal Entry 1: Venting Frustration
This day, unlike any other, is tainted and stained by the bright lights of a brighter day, but is it the brightness I was hoping for? Of course not! But you knew that already.
What am I to you? A mere human walking this Earth in need of the unquenchable thirst. The thirst that draws me to you? Well I feel parched wondering when you’ll be present. Are you present right now? Are you here with me? Where are you?
Do you hear me? Am I just another resounding gong to you? Or is it just not my time right now? I know you know best, but somehow I find it hard to believe it’s truth. When I get something in my head, it’s hard to get it out! But again you know that already.
When’s it my time? What do you have in store for me? I want it now, but apparently you don’t, so I wait frustrated knowing you know best. Just please hurry because I don’t know how long I can take this. I want you to breathe in me!
Friends, just called inviting us on a hike.
(why did they happen to call right when I asked you "what do you have in store for me?")
We’re going. Rain or shine and I’m glad!
Maybe this is what I need, because I still have 39 more pounds to lose, right?
Thank-you for your will even though it frustrates me,
right now.
Amen.
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Sometimes I think He’s not listening but He really is and just waiting for the right time. Timing is frustrating.
We all go through those time! I hope the hike is fun, and you feel God’s presence in his creation!
What I find can be helpful/encouraging is to look back, at a journal or even your blog, and see the times where He did speak and the waiting paid off. You may see you felt this way before, but in the end it was worth it. I have many times read back on times in my life when I was so worried, anxious or frustrated about something, yet I have forgotten about them and it’s only because I wrote them down and can re-read them that I remember at all, yet at the time they were all I could think of.
Enjoy your hike!