Mother’s Day

09 May 2008 | 05:39 pm | By Demara

This is my mom and I in 1985. I was 5 years old and well it was just the two of us then. This picture was taken in the mall’s photo booth.
Three years later…My brother was born.

This is my brother and I in 1990, I was 10 and he was 2 years old. He was a sweety pie, always impersonating animals. Going up to complete strangers in stores saying, "roar".

This is my brother in 2006. I believe that was the year. It is all a bit of a blur, that’s how difficult times are for me. This picture was taken a couple months before he put my mom in the hospital and went to jail.

This is the last time I saw my mom. 2006 in the hospital My brother had beat and stabbed her just missing her heart, she knew who I was but thought I still worked at Wal-Mart. I hadn’t Cashiered there in over a year, that was nerve racking to say the least for me.

Mother’s Day is approaching and I still haven’t seen my mom since. I miss her, but I don’t miss the craziness that life with her and my brother brought.

I don’t know why this year is harder than last year around this time, but it just is.

I don’t even know what day Mother’s Day is, but I hear ads about it so I know it’s coming soon.

I pray that my mom is doing alright, looking young and healthy still, and loving life.
I pray my brother is getting close to God in prison and learning from his mistakes. My family thinks he’ll be charged with attempted murder.

Still to this day I don’t know if it was the prescription medication my mom gave my brother for what the Doctors thought was hyper activity or whether it was the Chrystal Meth, Marajuana, and/or alcohol that contributed or the combination of both the prescriptions and the illegal substances that killed precious brain cells in my intelligent affectionate little brother?

But this I do know:
God knows!
He knows why this happened, he knows what for this happened, he’s with them and me, his angels are protecting us, and whether life gets confusing and misguided sometimes. We know that once you meet Him, there’s no going back, is there? Plus, it’s better to live knowing God then to die and meet him for the first time.
My mom led me to the Lord and I led my brother to the Lord, we all know and love our Father in Heaven, so one day we shall all meet again!

What about you? Does Mother’s Day hold good or bad feelings for you???


4 Comments so far

  1. Kristen May 9th, 2008 7:51 pm

    Hi Demara,
    I just wanted to let you know that I’m praying for your whole family as Mother’s Day approaches. I’m sure it’s not easy for any of you.
    Blessings,
    Kristen

  2. Alma May 9th, 2008 7:59 pm

    Thanks for sharing this, Demara. I’m so sorry. I remember meeting your Mom first at MCC when I worked there some years ago, and also meeting her at times, at Central Heights in past years. I’ll pray that God will give you His strength and peace. My Mom died almost 4 years ago at the age of 93 and I miss her, but am glad that she’s in the presence of Jesus, enjoying Him for all eternity.

  3. Danna May 10th, 2008 6:42 pm

    I am also praying for you this Mother’s day. Yes, you will be reunited one day…

  4. Nadine May 11th, 2008 12:46 am

    I’m sorry it holds such bad memories. I pray that one day it will hold good, positive memories and healing will take place.

    I’m sorry I haven’t been around much. Life has been busy - very busy.

    I’m praying for you.