I’m sick right now. I took a Tylenol and Advil and I feel so out of it. Woozy. I have cramps still ( the kind that only t3’s only help), my head feels like a migraine when I cough. When I cough it sounds like I have croup. And I am sweating big time, I feel like I’m in a sauna. My back feels like someone punched it over and over again. Just sore and bruised.
The good thing that happened on Friday though was on my very painful drive home, God slowed down traffic in the fast lane just long enough for me to see 3 herons in the middle of the freeway right beside the fast lane, just standing there as wild as ever with their eyes peeled wide open looking for prey. Usually I only see 1, and every time I drive by that one I pray, Lord I would really like to see more than one some time. And sure enough on the day I was feeling my worse he showed me 3, He is a GREAT God!!!
Did you see the comment Karen left for me on my blog today? or was it yesterday? It was on my hospital post, well her words made me cry and think of the book "The Shack" that I’m reading. God DOES love us, no matter what! We don’t HAVE to impress Him. He wants to see us in our natural, comfortable clothes, not in our high heels or lipstick, he created us naked-at our prettiest, man! has man ever dulled his artwork by making politics or institutionalized God followers out of us hey? To the point where people don’t even know what they should "wear" to church?!?!?! Crazy! This makes me sad. With a Spiritual sadness. We should ONLY have to "worry" about dressing modestly, that’s it! We should not think "fancy", that’s not who God wants to see, is it? He wants to see us-naked-just the way he made us. And when with others he wants to see us at home in him, laid back, comfortable, and approachable! That’s the church God wants!
You know what I think the perfect church would be? On a mountain trail, outside. A walking church. No buildings, just nature. That would be ideal. People worshiping as they walk in unison together, laughing and feeling good. Kind of like you might see the people at the Running Room doing. They are happy people when out there walking or running, they also show a lot of strength and accountability. That’s the ideal church. Perhaps if I find out that I can’t have kids after this surgery that could be something to pursue, maybe Jeff would help me with it, but to create The Nature Hike Church, because I know (this is something I need to overcome) but alone I do feel tiny out there in this big world and around people, so I feel like I alone could not make a difference or start a church like this, but it is my dream.
I think we should dress for church appropriately…. If you were going to visit the Queen or King what would you wear? Your jeans…I highly doubt that! God does look at the heart but still there is also a thing called respect.
You know? I probably would wear my jeans to visit the King or Queen actually! Haha I wouldn’t think that disrespectful at all, just that them dressing up was "expected" because of their class! However, I would want them to dress comfortably with me, I would want them to know that I wouldn’t mind if they met me in their sweat pants, to see the King or Queen down to earth would be so neat! I think I would probably respect them more for it too!!!
Jason and I were just discussing this topic. We came to the conclusion that it is all in the attitude – if you are too worried about either looking good to impress people or too preoccupied with exercising your freedom to dress like a bum – either way it is your attitude that gets in the way. We should go to church dressed modestly and respectfully and then not think another moment about what we are wearing but focus on God. Now if I could just do that…!
I hope you feel better soon D. Happy Valentines Day.
Julie