Just now I woke up after having a nightmare. I had planned to sleep the whole night, and wake up at 5 to run. But instead I have woken up now, and since I feel my sleep is more important than running, I may miss tomorrow MORNING, if so, I WILL run after work. I hate nightmares! Especially, when they involve people you love and death. A bloody death! Grr…
did I mention too that I was the only one that cried at the girl’s night? I don’t think it was THAT serious, but people asked about my mom and brother, and the past… and well I lost it when I mentioned the time when my mom told the cops that "my brother was not in the freezer." I was so embarrassed and could not believe my mom had said that, when I was there. The cops then proceeded to ask me who I was… I did not want them to know. but I told them. yes I am related…ok so those were not my exact words but that’s the point.
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So I spent that time of tears, in front of the girls, talking about those people that were once the closest people to me, the people I thought and knew as normal, just to discover they in fact were insane, the whole ‘living’, ‘growing up’ and ‘learning’ situations insane!!! That was my life THEN, and now, my life … well, it is MY life, and I am JUST starting to realize what sanity is. STARTING to live normal. If there is in fact a normality to be lived?!?! This is my life, my story, my past. I am an overcomer, and I WILL survive it!!!
